. . . . so why can't I just come out and say it? Why do I mull, and quiver, and shiver, and shake. . . . simply because I don't think it will work. I don't think I will succeed, I think I will be laughed at, I think the feedback may be rather negative and honestly - I don't think I can handle that, even tho, inside at the very back of my head, I hear a voice over and over saying, 'you silly girl'.
I am typing this now, so that I can look back one day and one of the following options will apply.
1. If I go ahead with this that -
1a - if it fails, I will be a silly girl, and really should listen to the inside of my head.
1b - if it works, I will be astounded, and really should listen to the inside of my head, cause it could be saying I am being silly for worrying and balking.
1c - if it fails or if it works, I have given it a go and either way I have succeeded as opposed to not even taking up the challenge at all which would be rather lame, and seriously what is life all about if I sit in a corner and do nothing.
2. If I don't go ahead with this -
2a - I will NEVER KNOW.
2b - see '2a' above.
2c - refer '2a'.
You are the first to even have a hint that something is on my mind, that something has been drawn up, measured, calculated, drafted, sewn, ribboned, tried for size, redesigned, resewn, and been given the accepted nod of approval to continue.
Wish me luck that I find the courage to stand by my little idea and come forward. I promise to keep you posted.
Thank you for letting me get this anxiousness out of my fingers and into the keyboard, even tho I haven't been totally forthcoming with all information, *b-kerk* (chicken noise) it does feel better even admitting this far.
I think I like option 1c. That is the advice I would give someone else. I just need to Jump!
Have a lovely week at your place, and tell me, do you get scared to jump sometimes, and do you regret that you haven't made that jump and missed an opportunity in the past? I would love to know.